Missing My Friend

Here goes another mushy blog, but I can't help it, I have to put it somewhere. Today I saw a friend that I haven't spoken to in several months. She was in front of me at the store (I know, I know, the store again. LOL).

We had a falling out back in November and haven't spoken since and I wondered if she would be nice or ugly to me. She was pleasant. Not overly friendly, but not mean either. I got a candy bar and she said something about it but I couldn't hear her very well, but it appeared that she smiled at me and my heart melted. I hoped she would hug me, but she didn't. She hugged my friend behind me but not me. I don't know how to tell her that I'm sorry for calling her a bad name a couple of months ago, so I say nothing. I miss her so much. She filled a place in my heart that only she owns. A place that no other friend will ever fill. I don't want it to be the way it is with us, but I can't change it. All of you who are praying people (I have to admit that I'm not really much on it anymore) please say a prayer that before I move, she and I can bury old grudges and let it all go. I want peace with her, but I can't tell her that. I love her and miss her so badly. When she smiled at me, I thought I would cry. I want her back in my life, but I don't know if she wants that. If she does, that would be great, if not then that's okay too. Just whisper a prayer for us to get along. I almost paid for her items today. If I had been a few mintues earlier, I would have, but she was checked out before I got there. Maybe soon, we can have peace again.

Sorry for the personal blog, but my heart is heavy without her.

Much love,

Christy