The Journey

Life is a journey. How many times have we heard that and let it go? We often hear commons sayings and put no thought into them whatsoever. This morning while I was on the phone with someone discussing all of what I've been through in life and possibly doing an autobiography, I recalled in great detail, (maybe for the first time) most of what I'd went through during the relationship in which I was abused. It's as if a dam broke and my words and memories flooded that person's ear like water flowing so quickly it coul,dn't be stopped. I cried as I remembered what had happened and all he did to me. It was painful, but it was time to recall it all and let it out. I've been hiding it all behind a hatred that I have for him. A deep bitterness in my heart for this individual that I need to move beyond before it destroys me. I've tried, but it's one of the hardest things to do. He hurt me and he didn't care. I had never been abused by a man who claimed to love me before him and I will NEVER allow myself to be treated that way again. I never thought I'd ever put up with something like that, but when you are in it and so beat down by life and that person tells you every day you're worthless and NO ONE will ever want you because of a past sin, you start to FEEL worthless. You allow his words to take root in your mind and you become who he says you are and you allow him to treat you terribly. I told my friend that, although I hated being abused for all those years, and although getting out was one of the most difficult things I've ever done, I want to use my experience to help others who find themselves in the same or similiar situations. I'm not a counselor nor any kind of expert on the subject, but I can help you to find someone if you are in a place such as this. Just message me and I WILL help you. I promise. I could have allowed the abuse to keep me down, but instead I have used it to build me into a strong, independent woman who will NEVER need another man as long as I live. I will take care of myself and I will be happy, alone before I ever allow anyone else to treat me in such a manner.

I don't mean to be so lengthy in my blogs, nor do I want to bring anyone down, but I write whats on my heart and in my mind at the time. So you could read anything from a heartfelt post, to a funny, crazy one, to a business blog. LOL. Just whatever is in my mind, usually comes out on the keyboard. I love you all and I love that you enjoy them. I got a soooo sweet email from, Mr. Gregory today. I'm going to venture out and say he's my number one reader. You, my dear, are a very kind man. I look forward to our lunch on Wednesday. So I hope you've found this one to your liking, althought the subject matter is deep.

I want to end the way I began. Life is a wonderful journey. Look back at all of the things you've experienced over your many years. Some are good, some are horrible, but they all form who you are, and that is the best part. I am who I am based on what I've went through. I'm so glad I'm a strong woman, because most wouldn't have survived what has been dealt to me. But I have. Each time tragedy came to me, I allowed it to make me, not break me. I take criticism and use it for my good. I don't get mad about it, but rather take their words and use them to improve my situation.

I guess I should stop here before I write another book. LOL.

Remember to work hard and Dream Big!!

Much love,

Christy