Changes

It's after midnight and I can't sleep. My mind is awash in thoughts of my new life, keeping me awake tonight.

EVERYTHING is about to change. Life as I know it, here in this tiny home in Merrimac, WV is about to be a memory for me. I'll be back, of course to visit, but I will never be the same person who left. Life will never be what it is at this moment right now. I'm thinking of my mom and how she would be smiling and saying "oohhh Richard Gere". And being excited with all of my news. I miss her tonight. I miss having someone to talk to. Maybe that's why I take to the computer so much and pour my heart out to all of you. I can't see you, so it's easy to put it on the screen. I don't know if you are judging me or not. I just open a vein and let it bleed. I say on here what I want to say to my mother, or a mother figure. I hope I don't bore you guys with my ramblings. It's what I do best. LOL

Anyway, I am trying to spend each day this week being normal. Doing normal things that I can only do in WV. I went four wheeling, shot a gun, sat on a mountain top and watched the sunset. I'm just going to be the WV me this week, because it all will be different once I'm in LA. Life will be swift, filled with work and schedules, meetings and a whole new language that I barely speak now (movie lingo,lol). There will be new people to get to know. New roads to travel, a new home, new neighbors, new EVERYTHING. I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm happy and I'm scared.

Change is good, right?

Sometimes we need to say goodbye to a place and the ghosts that haunt us. I surely have many of those here.

Thanks for allowing me time tonight to invade your homes. Time to share how I feel. I really do love you all. If any of you want to get together, holler at me and I'll try to stop and see you. You are my biggest supporters and best friends. Goodnight.

Remember to work hard and Dream Big!!

Much love,

Christy