She Changed

All of my life, I've been an extrovert, a people person. I loved being with others, I loved making them laugh and enjoying conversatoins and the company.

All of my life until recently, that is.

In the last year I've found, through hurt, lies, deception, and being used, that I'm better off being alone. I have separated myself from the masses. From those who only seek to take from me, manipulate me and give no thought to what their behavior does when they are finished. I have tightened my circle. And even those who I "hang" with, don't know much about me. They think they do but they really have no idea.

I have come to realize that I love myself and I love my own company. I have also spent many, many days alone with my thoughts and have seen that I have so much insight into things because of the way I've been done in my life. I try my best to put these revelations on my blog to try to help others. I don't want to think I've been through hell for nothing.

Anyway, now I would describe myself as an introvert, someone who loves being alone. I have come to despise going out to the store, to WalMart, or anywhere I have to deal with others. I know that's not a nice thing to say, but it's true. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate people, I just don't have the same need to be validated by them as I used to have in my life. When I was an extrovert, I NEEDED the approval of others. I felt the more people I had around me, the more I mattered. I felt as though that made me "count" in some way.

That's not real.

Just because you are surrounded by others, or tons of others, it doesn't mean a hill of beans (as granny said).

I have found in my life, that most problems and drama happen because you are surrounded by others. If you are alone, there are no problems, (or less problems). LOL. True.

So I'd rather be alone than have to deal with other's moods, their attitudes, their mouths. LOL.

I like myself and my company.

I read an article on why introverts make good writers. I'll include the link if any of you would like to read it. The information in there was accurate. It's a good little three minute read, so copy the link and read it.

https://cgblake.wordpress.com/2013/08/13/why-introverts-make-good-writers/

So, after my blog, I'll go back to work on my next book and spend the next two days holed up in my office typing away and enjoying EVERY minute of it. LOL. I don't have to go anywhere! And that makes me happy.

Unfortunately, I did have to make a trip to the grocery store earlier, and I picked up a pizza for my son. But now I'm locked inside, in my p.j.'s and I'm ready to tackle my work, ALONE.

I love you all, I really do.

Remember to work hard and Dream Big!!

Much love,

Christy