Fear or Faith?

Fear or faith?

That's what I dealt with last night as I tried to sleep and here's why.

Beginning tomorrow I'm stepping into new territory. I'm doing something that I never thought I would ever be doing. My company, Dream Big Productions is making it's first business deal. We are trying to option the rights for a series of books.

Dream Big Productions was started because I want to give unknown authors the same opportunites as I've been given. To have their work recognized by more than what they are experiencing now. I want to take their stories to tv and maybe even the big screen. Now, my company has nothing to do with the movies that are being made from my books, it's totally separate. I've been blessed to be seen by execs who are interested in my story and have taken it and we are in the process of bringing it to life on the big screen.

That got me thinking. If it can happen for me, can I make it happen for others?

My answer was YES!! Why not?

And so, I got a license and I'm now operating a business of doing what my motto says:"helping others dream big".

I want this business to be dedicated to bringing good, clean programs to tv and theaters. I want the projects that we play a part in to be something that the whole family can watch together. That's why I want to dedicate the business to God and allow Him to take it and use it for His purpose and His will. Please pray with me and for me that I'll do His will regarding Dream Big Productions. I'm so green in the business, but I'm following what I'm being shown and taught by others.

I think the enormity of it hit me last night as I lay in bed trying to rest. It all came to me of what is about to transpire as I travel tomorrow for a very important meeting, and I got scared. I felt nervous and began to say "what am I doing?"

Now, bear in mind, that NEVER happens to me. I'm usually a fearless and full steam ahead kinda gal. I usually take no thought to failing because I see each opportunity in life as a chance for success.

But last night, I felt the weight of it all. The weight of having employees that will depend on me for their jobs and benefits. The weight of those who's books I'm taking to help them succeed. I felt my chest tighten and my heart flutter. The thought of "what have you gotten yourself into" acutally ran through my mind. But I quickly shoved it aside and said "it's too late now, this is a go" and I asked God to take it over and I fell back to sleep.

I felt the fear that tried to creep in. I felt it try and take my peace, my rest. But I also felt the Spirit of God as He comforted me that He will be there in my endeavors. Doing this is not going to be the easiest thing I've ever done, I won't pretend that it will be. But I know that with the help of God and those that I've brought onto my team, along with my mentors, contacts and those already "in the know", the path will be smoother. I also know my work ethic and that I'm a "do it or die" woman. I know that I give my all in whatever I do. So, I don't have time for fear. I only have time for faith. Faith in God that where He has led me is the right place. Faith that by allowing Him to be front and center in this business and by using it for His purpose, it will be alright. Without God running it, I don't want any part of it. I want this to be for what He wants on tv and movies.

I feel like I'm on opposites ends of the spectrum in a way. MY movie is based on my books, which are full of explicit, sexual content. It was needed for the story to show the contrast between the man of God when he was in the pulpit and who he really was in his private life. So that is necessary for that movie.

BUT in my company, I'm wanting to concentrate on good, clean books, Christian fiction and the like, to be brought to homes everywhere. Is that a contrast or what? Ha Ha. It really is. But my books are what they are, and the movies will be what they need to be. But I see my company headed in a different direction than that.

So, I'm asking for prayers today from all of you as I get ready to travel once again in the morning for a few days to seal a deal. This is one that I'm praying will be on Hallmark or Netflix by the end of next year. Please whisper one for us all as we sit down to negotiate on Tuesday. Thank you all so much. I love you all. You can follow your dreams and reach your goals just like I have. I hope my story inspires you to do just that.

Remember to work hard and Dream Big!!

Much love,

Christy